Waiting....

The Trail of waiting. Boy is that a very big subject. I have had a dream for a very long time that I feel every time I start to get close to it its knocked back down. I cant seem to get over the wall that seems to be around it. I feel like the cloud of failure is just hitting me before I can even get the chance to start to succeed.

I struggle with those who get what they need and want but I still am here begging for what I feel needs to happen. I have realized that I need to not think about me, me, me and think about what God might have in store. What the purpose of my life, and how does it pertain to what God wants, adn not what I want. Yes. He does know the desires of my heart really well. Hey, he is the one who put those desires there. I need to refocus my thoughts and dreams and instead of thinking about my dreams, I need to focus on the one who can make them come true.

What a difference I must say would happen. What decisions need to be made, and am I making the right ones is the question at hand. Which path will I take, and how will it affect those around me, but most important how will it affect the kingdom of God. How would God react to what I do, and what positive or negative things will come out of it.

So, waiting is very hard. I have learned that waiting shapes and molds us into what God wants us to be, and I have recognized that our dreams is the drive, not the motivation. The motivation is the God who gave those same dreams to us, and when our focus gets off then so will our motivation.

So as I write this tonight at 1:10 am in the morning, I realize that my focus has been more on the dreams that I have, than the motivation. We must have our focus correct, so that in turn our motivation will be established correctly in him for our dreams to come true after the waiting is over.

God Bless...